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I'm dying when I miss you

Thu, 15 Dec 2011 12:12:14 -0500

I miss your fondness, I’m cold, I can’t breathe,
I need you, i’m dying, five days distanced
Tears down over my cheeks, emptiness, haunting dreams,
Insecurity, i’m finished, on my bed, layin’ awake,
Thinkin’ about you, timeless, I’m the vision, you like to torture,
Your face, I see in thousand ways, It’s beauty is fillin’ me with grace,
Narrowness everywhere at dead dawn, missing you so damn much,
Emotional every few hours, In my bed room, I see the haze,
My eyes shown, but it misplace, so hurtful, when I stare at picture,
Your pictures; into the eyes I stare, knowin’ and unspoken; the missingness,
A thousand hot knives driven into me, doesn’t hurt as much as I miss you,
Two arms, double the warmth, struggled around me, so fond,
As the head remains at my chest, the Imagination of the movements,
It’s killing me within, build of tears, shown of eyelides, shown in heart,
My hand, she’ve let go at the plane, for the trip, I sink the ship,
At my knees I fall, natural ground, tall grass surrounding me deep,
As the moon show fullness, I stare into it’s brightness,
Your face appears, a thousand reasons to breathe,
Just be lookin’ at it’s reflection, It’s deep, a ryhmth coming sun,
My mind blown, insanity shown, freak out of every though I think of,
I have about you; about your smile, about your gorgeous eyes, beautiful body,
Amazing personality, I get insane, everything about you, everything I love,
In pieces I obeyfuly wait, to end the pain; to end the suffering,
At the airport I wait on the last day, where I see the flight in the airplanes,
It lands, I see people steppin’ out, your legs; I see, seeking your smell,
Your eyes, I find through every misery as it meets, with my eyes,
You run, me too, you jump, I prepare, a pounce to my body,
A catch I do make, standing alone only the two of us,
Down in the rain, a embrace all that was remain,
A whisper “I missed you” the lips sprout and desired at mine,
Soft voice, a reply “I missed you too” was spoken,
A kiss connecting and marking at both lips, a closing in of the eyes,
Fillin’ the warmthness of both the heart’s ice, an smile at both sides,
The face of her, hide down at right shoulderplate, chin on the top,
Her tears falls, turning her face back to mine, as I swipe it away,
“I love you” words from her lips, so much meaning, so much fondness,
“I love you so much more” as replied with tear build in his eyes.

Inner Voice

Thu, 15 Dec 2011 12:11:12 -0500

[First Verse]
Decayin’ wind blows, walkin’ up the stadium as they go,
The crowd circle the stadium as Caden spit his flow, there they go,
literally wow, that they’re concerned about my returnin’ they sob and bow,
How could they ever doubt me that I’d would be gone, loyal isn’t your trusted tale,
Thinkin’ that I have fallen off makes you sink, literally you’re dead wrong,
I have been speed ryhming in a cage on an whole different page,
Dwellin’ those random letters in a new era of lyrical states,
Sensitively dragged on my knees, with my wirsts chained in goose,
My muscles basically have been strengthed for so long,
In a hole they’re patiently waitin’ to be graved out, all alone,
Use that key to be written in ice cold diseases to make him decrease,
Since my 12th to my 18th, my flow feels like it’s been hot an entire life,
My medication could be a isolation, but i’ll iginite on a space located station,
And fire up a inferno transformated supernovamatic spell,
I’m livin’ in a hell a heaven to create angels and demons for a defensive shell,
You’ll never get my soul, you’ll never get my heart, ‘cuz I already sold ‘em.
From the start to that lovely goddess of enlightment warth.

[Second Verse]
I’m a murderous, memorizable killtronic,
A wing abandoned selfcontroll fighter,
It’s meditation, focusing on my defeation,
Missing in the distance, it’s killin’ my deeds,
But I never show how I truely satisfy,
I’m alive and dead in their blinding eyes,
On the burden of the edge,
Of my pain and the destruction,
And the lifeless construction,
Tired, hurt but never cry,
Weak, insecure but never lie,
Cold, broken and always shy,
Dying while I wait to die,
I wont ever say goodbye,
I’m to young to die,
I have much to give, to much to let go,
My heart always give you an extra show,
How truely I give you everything,
In the shadows you know it’s me,
When my poetry’s deep,
In a lyrical melody, to your tederness smile,
Inside my heart always skip a beat, when I see you,
Standing in a right line in the front of me,
Don’t know what to do, don’t know how to act,
But I know one thing for sure, for real,
I’ll never cease breathe, when I have you,
Laying in our heart beats.

[Third Verse]
Innocent youth mixed up with a destructive childhood,
I have been chewed up and spit out,
And when I stand up and keep on going,
They’re all screamin’ that i’m losin’
I’m hearing your voice, always in my mind,
Maybe i’m just dead, and a illusion remain in my head,
As a inner voice creatin’ a brutal fatally dead,
Crawl your way up and stand up, being totally broken up,
Fightin’ to the top, when you’re emotionlessly being chokin’,
I’m not tryin’ to consume you, in the confession being drenched,
In breathing, air is taken the best of the automatic,
Cocaine in the game, where’d you can’t escape from,
My bones broke, and still walking it’s a fire spin,
And i’m literally throwin’ turmoil it is dead a drowning regret,
Be careful where you’d wish for, someday it’ll come back to,
The way it came back to me, now clean but still broking,
Now i’m loved, but still pain cooking,
Hurt no-more, but i’m still bouncin’ and kick roundin’,
In my insides where the hurt is still sounding,
Body meltin’ and cloudin’ i’m not tryin’ to sadening you,
But tellin’ you how much I’ve been through yeah, it doesn’t fit tho,
When I can’t change it back to the time where I’ve been good,
I can’t change what has been cleared negatively in the past,
But you can cure where I fell, where I drown and dropped,
By a unstoppable monster of myself, a side-effect of my depression,
A long-gone image of my reckless and agressive solid treasure,
My mind a empty space of a thrown away letter,
And you always knew on which way I have been better,
A place not better then on a road being a forgetter,
Forgetter of who I am, sorry of who I am a nothing man.

Aurora Borealis

Thu, 15 Dec 2011 12:10:13 -0500

I fought for her and ended up with an unknown feeling,
Leaving myself with the barely breathing it’s assertive when sleeping,
Knees crumble and weakenly when I see her standing on the bridge, I stumble,
In the sunlight filling the sun with beautiful desires, perfectly fit her gorgeous smile,
As her lips sparkle and glare in the shine reflectin’ all to me, she makes me shakingly,
The way she dress, walk and stare to impress, she stuns leaving me breathless,
In a tederness hailin’ fond gust I need you to see how how eager I can be,
When I ryhme and fantasize about your pure beauty, see how much you mean to me,
I feel a passionate crush in her serene serenity a heartfelt smiling in wonderful lust,
She can say whatever she want but her beauty compares to none in this case i’m never wrong,
See how I envisioned it in her heart i’m to the bottom pulled in imprisonment,
Closer and closer as we get, tryin’ to talk to her, forming words as the shiver disturb,
Struggle as I try speaking while staring at her face, while cheeks are red beaming,
She put me in the oppressivement where I’d try to control my emotions,
To late for a reaction, i’m drivin’ insane I just wanted a little bid of her warmth,
But it end up being my cocaine and later on it turned me into a all-giving monster,
The beautiful look of her face, the glare of her lips, it’s to much to take critically I’m hit,
She charm a romantical melody when I ryhme undisputed a perfect made heart beat,
I’m the judgment, the aurora borealis of her truth spoken addictive love,
And I won’t stop, never leaving you on what cost, you make me drown in endless love,
No rehabilitation for this addiction, I wanna go home, in your arms; the perfect location.